the power of hate

if only it'd be that easy,
to wish someone unhappiness.

the sorrows they've endured,
the hatred of thine self procured.
your wishes all but washed,
no idea, oh so lost.
nothing to leave a trace,
your words powerless
to their self hate.

they've got you beat.
it's just too sad,
to see someone
hate themselves that bad.

imprints

face the wall
to the back of your head,
sift through thoughts of useless
none worthy of this moment.

still the moment,
smooth as glace
sailing, silently past non-thoughts.
deserted, alone this mind,
so happy and peaceful this moment.

False Knowledge

take away it's oxygen and it has no place to roam.
it takes on no new life,
no new train of thought to starve.
pushing it's way back,
pulling you down to the misery
tearing, depleting, forging for new power.
don't let it confuse you,
you do not need those feelings
you'll be fine without those thoughts.
we suffer at our own hands
crazy how we think we control
how we believe we know.

seeing through a different lens

a summer to fall in love with

to live by

Food.
Sex.
Entertainment.

definition

COLLUSION

a conflict where the parties are inviting the very
things they're fighting against.

Romeo and Juliet

- My bounty is as boundless as the sea,
My love as deep; the more I give to thee,
The more i have, for both are infinite. -

-William Shakespeare-

not a thought

quietly i'm thinking

trol the con

LUST FOR THAT CONTROL
MIND CONTROL
MY CONTROL

OVER CONTROLLED

I'm a PA

my breath is shallow, eyes red with desire of sleep, unfocused i stare blankly ahead. stuck in this position of unimportance, of solitude, of boredom. i am un-intrigued, uninspired, weak. movement keeps me going, reason keeps me sane. i hear not but wind, not but silence. you distress me as incompetent. i have no desire to impress you. i don't care if you like me. i am lone. this ugliness of thoughts is not me. i am not so bitter, not so cold.

CHANGE

change is needed, if not in my environment, then in my head. thoughts, more deadly than actions. concentration on the negative is pulling me under. escape. escape these thoughts of misgivings. no need to suffer any longer. i am in control of this destiny of mine. i change my attitude. i bring forth my own happiness. i please my halted mind, my frozen fingers, my frustrated eyes.

I AM THE CHANGE

hiding in the light

dreams and reality, two of the same.

backwards falling rain

let the rain fall back into the skies,
run, splashing through the tears of our fallen enemies.
i bathe in the stolen rays of light.
in time grows older,
floating above the thoughts of our friends.
hie to be weightless,
empty,
calm.

a long hello/short goodbye

a farewell that never really is one
so happy the sad that go
for now you're lost
tomorrow you're found
and so on and so on i'm told

a tease or short brief freedom
can't really say for sure
i thought i'd gotten rid of you
but here you are once more

so hello old friend
or no such friend at all
i will work with you
and by your side
the same as you recall

let us part
on sweet well wishes
and promises to keep touch

whether it be true or not
no one will quite confess
for tis all part of this
yours and mine
thine mess

and so
a politicians truths
and pirates promises
you're the best
and nothing less

lost no found

what happens when you lose a person?

ma coeur

temptations

hold nothing as important
no possession too meaningful
the despair of a loss
of a thing!
it hurts, but what does it even hold?
you lie to me,
you make me think you're great,
that you're grand!
but you're nothing more than a hunk of material
that i picked up at the store.
how sad.

the things you want the most,
seem to be the things that slip through your fingers.
why does it matter?
how does it make us better?
i feel worse, because when that item is then removed
i feel like i'm not as good.

i am but my vibration.

look at my pulse.

i am not satisfied.
I WANT LESS
stop tempting me.