Making Room

Finally allowing myself to feel the disparity

I break down to tears and allow its passing

Allowing it to flow from me

So that I may reach for Happiness once again

Determination

Fear shall not be my captor,

For I have courageous strength behind my Will

Round Again

My need and desire to control everything in my life right now stems from my overwhelming feeling of not being in control of anything. I am bouncing back and forth, swirling around, rebounding off of everyone and I feel as lost as ever. I always return here, after every round. I just keep ending up back at what feels like the beginning. And every time I am back at the beginning, I am once again alone and the reflection feels like I've made a fool of myself.

To Meditation

Meditation may come soon,

and I look to it with open arms. 

My eyes are ready to cry.

Expression rests impatiently upon my lips.

Cheeks flush with joy,

that the time of resting has finally past

and the time of living is upon us.

Cemented

My fear, frozen to this icy path
That no longer move nor sway
I have turned to stone
And no longer recognize the reflection
That only exists on the taste of a butterflys' wing

A Little Reminder

My friend Darja teaches me about being a whole complete person who has a rolodex filled with emotions and to allow myself free expression. Every person who enters my life is here to teach me something; Am I ready to learn? Am I paying attention?

I have not been the best pupil, it has taken me a lot to gain my focus and desire. To line up the practice and the teach. I have to learn each step by themselves and then put it all together for the big lesson. 

Don't be so hard on yourself as you're simply learning and practicing. You may not get it right away, but that does not make you a failure; That makes you a participant in Life. 


This is my adventure and I find I need to constantly realign my focus. I am such a wanderer and get completely swept up in side things. It's good to take breaks and be free, just don't lose focus. Each day to remind myself to not step further than one foot ahead. We're doing this one step at a time and we're working on being patient. Where is my intuition if I am completely distracted? 

Seeker

Happiness shall be found within the folds of my own existence

 and my hands shall be the sculptor.

Belief Breathes

I believe I am a stronger person due to my beliefs. I believe there is more to life than this one adventure and I believe I chose to be here and as who I am. I have a lot of work to do on allowance of my own beliefs. I am in the process of unlocking and I intend to do great things with my gifts. Perhaps the desire of understanding the bigger picture is too big of a step for me at this moment and mostly a distracting one from the smaller steps I must take to get there. It is good knowing which direction I am going in, but I don't need to be so intently focused all of the time. I feel re-invigorated in my work - Focused solely on myself and I shall see the reflection of that work in the others whom surround me. 

Oneness

"This is the moment you have awaited since time immemorial. Your consciousness stands on the threshold of a radical shift for which you have been preparing for lifetimes. You sense that you are at a place of completion with your major life issues. You are able to identify the patterns and the themes that have surfaced again and again in the dramas of your daily life. And you sense, unquestionably, that something has shifted in the very depths of your being. The shift is subtle -barely perceptible- yet it is undeniable. The energy flows easily. And resistance is nowhere to be found.

You are a pioneer in uncharted territory, yet you are most assuredly not alone; for you experience the connectedness from within that could only be Divine. You are at a place of Oneness with All Creation. You have passed the point of no return on your sacred journey. And you have surrendered totally to the momentum that carries you, effortlessly. Your life has become a joyous celebration - a gift you have given to yourself. This is the moment.  This is the moment that you recognize what has been there all along. This is the start of being, eternally present in consciousness, that is crystallizing into form. You have given definition to your heart's desire. And now all that remains is your experience of it." 

Rasha

No Moon to Pull You

The fresh, deep, majestic blue mass, that once rippled a thousand extending arms, now sits still. Waiting to feel the playfulness of the wind upon itself. The water sits by itself.