Making Room

Finally allowing myself to feel the disparity

I break down to tears and allow its passing

Allowing it to flow from me

So that I may reach for Happiness once again

Determination

Fear shall not be my captor,

For I have courageous strength behind my Will

Round Again

My need and desire to control everything in my life right now stems from my overwhelming feeling of not being in control of anything. I am bouncing back and forth, swirling around, rebounding off of everyone and I feel as lost as ever. I always return here, after every round. I just keep ending up back at what feels like the beginning. And every time I am back at the beginning, I am once again alone and the reflection feels like I've made a fool of myself.

To Meditation

Meditation may come soon,

and I look to it with open arms. 

My eyes are ready to cry.

Expression rests impatiently upon my lips.

Cheeks flush with joy,

that the time of resting has finally past

and the time of living is upon us.