A pen.

to halt need for reason
to accept this moment as it is
i would not be this person
if i stayed that person there

to be a person
such a fragile place to be
no hallucinations
no fantasies
or blind faith

to believe,
to trust,
so much more than just because

i free my human form
to stay to this place
as long as it enjoys the play

the light i follow
calls me
the feeling so good
so true

you keep those thoughts to those minds
trust honesty
keep my ears clean of your filth

i need not a thing but air
not a pulse but empty thought

i accept my reality as passing.

growing stalk

to release the thoughts
to not hold onto the judgements
to forgive yourself your assumptions
- your accusations

to shed this idea of unworthiness
how light to feel
so free to move
to change
to be

i cannot detain my potential much longer
i will not punish my naive being
i will allow myself the freedom to grow

don't hurry your heart.

the misguided nature

this looming cloud,
pinned atop a head
foggy views
on miss-appropriate situations


stuck in this mist
unable to see 3 inches ahead
afraid to trust own judgement

scared this won't pass
will not get better
how to believe another fate?

this negative mind set scary
the fear running so high
you cannot be my own brain
my own thoughts

these views not mine
i am not accountable for any harm
or injustice
i was used.

not me, but it

to read your words
ones you wrote with your own hand
your pen on paper
how unforgiving ink may be

how your hurt, your hate,
your sadness flows through that ink
splashed across pages and pages of sorrow

i recognize you dear ego
your lack of attempt to hide is not brave
it is not bold or attractive
it is sad how powerful you feel when you tare me down
upsetting when you berate someone else
mean when you use my words against me

in my most vulnerable time of need
you're there, on the dot
to push me down even that little bit further

you know how i tick
you understand my moves
you've got me to a science

you believe you have won
you believe you have power
what you don't see is the work i've been doing to silence you
say your farewells

to walk with closed eyes

there is no need for an explanation of how
to trust in what is
the faith of the blind

eyes create stories
fueled with adventures of risk and fear
fights on swords of words
oceans filled with tears

in our rush to the top
to look down on those we have surpassed
to view shattered faces
and broken bodies

although physically they are sane
mentally they are changed
never to return to that naive state again

beware of your actions
for they do not just change your course
but those of others that happen upon your path as well

safe travels and bright eyes

the path to move ahead to

forcing its way out
more and more unforgiving;
disastrous fate meant not for this time

slow thy breath down
calm this fire of beats so red
breathe slowly and surely

resting heads on pillows
hands in hearts
patient in thoughts

not alone
not deserted
nor forgotten

to only see,
to look beyond thee
your ever more is but slightly ahead
pace yourself,
it will make time to show

these tears fresh
frustration clasped between clenching fists
not an end to run to or a beginning to start from

release, it's not worth the sweat

brain be gone!

please be kind to me young brain
please respect my wishes of silence
please listen instead of always trying to be louder

your narcissistic tendencies will not be tolerated
your egotistical ideals shut down
i look forward to silencing you,
as good as i can get you gone.

jelly beans and junipers

a late thank you
perhaps believed never owed
an experience is still a lesson
still a discovery

meaningful moments of company in keep
expressions of desires to be had
cracking that stone shelled surface

it may have felt only as if a moment
but to thy heart much more
my keepsakes of memories
my appreciation of hearts

j.

you are your own protagonist

to be happy from the deepest within
to be loved by our truest self
to be sure from our strongest core

trust your intuition above all else
faith in your divine

i thought i was a car

forgetting of lies
living in truth
little thoughts if any
surpassing unrealistic ideals

your mind a vehicle
powered by reasons of belief
never empty, the cost; L I F E

a slow leak, attained through awakening
unnoticed to the driver
driving closer and closer towards empty

the lower the tank descends
the closer the freedom appears
no fear, no judgment, no nonsense

completely depleted, no gas to go
only then will you take a second to look around
and realize your car is a plane
a plane that runs on purity of spirit
without the need of greed or power to run it
you take off and fly with ease on open awareness
to be weightless, to be hie, to be free

my unsettling position

my unconscious nature
freely flying silent heart
caught between a sun and moon

twinkling tears of fury
always struggling to find balance
to shift the weight onto more loving things
to heal from within

to have the ability to slow
the patience to calm
and the dedication to forget

to live in the abyss

no explanation necessary

you will understand once you no longer need to explain why.

the view

the view
to view from a different angle
another point of view

gathering your experiences
sifting through thought and lesson
summing up your entirety

what our mouths speak
our ears hear
our brains believe

we are but puppets to our own show
we mimic
we recite
we lie

to hum
to buzz
to silence the dialogue
peace is in the distraction

a humble request

please accept my love
please accept my gratitude
please accept my admiration

nothing more

subside my anger
drop by my side
quiet my frustration
the need has passed to worry

linked feelings of vulnerability and inept
every step, a falsity of truth
every breath, an exhale towards death

to have no meaning
to purely be based on moment
a moment to end

to succeed such a life
one of pointless determination
the determination to matter
to affect
to deliver
yet one of pure reason
to just be

be and nothing more

the crutch of fear

to fill a void with nothing but a different void
gains only further distraction from your acquired task
to be unsure of how to pursue
or how to move forwards
is a tough feeling to overcome

chained by these negative desires
ones that slow my progress
ones that taint my objective

feet feared in their place
mind occupied by distraction
time may pass but my life shows no age

wisdom comes from those who try
those who fail and then get back up on their feet and try again
those whose nerves run high, yet leap faithfully anyways
those who differ

the only one who is fearful, is the one whose existence depends on it

innocently sweet

when in a state of vulnerability
unable to uncloud the mind
fogged interpretations of innocent reactions
never look further than knowledge given by that one
never make assumptions of their kind
never believe you're greater to know than them
for if you do,
you will not only suffer a state of embarrassment
but one of poor sight
and self judgement

keep your eyes clean
and your heart pure
leave your nose on your face
and a smile on your lips

stay innocent

craving the love of need

fighting off feelings of loneliness

where do these feelings originate from?

why do i feel the presence of someone will upgrade my life?

how to break this attachment

for it is not real

just mentally chaining myself down to an idea

i miss because inside i ache

my heart feels it cannot produce enough self love

if i love myself;

then i enjoy the company of others

if i feel i need the love of others;

then i crave their company

i am free to accept love

in all forms it takes

clouded brain

can you be quiet and still?

resistant to time and space?

oblivious to boredom?

past need or desire?

no need for object or prize

mind free of dilutents

how your peace calms me

how it floods my system

and send shivers down my spine

how it mutes my thought

and brings a smile to my lips

if your peace was an action

it would envelope me like a warm embrace

thank you for sharing your peace